I don’t remember the exact date, and I’m not keen on remembering the exact date given the circumstances behind starting Black and Blue Socks. Here I am, a year later, and a year wiser. And while I guess being a year old is a big deal, and I should at least congratulate myself. I also want to reflect on a year of blogging as a whole.
The Incident at Borderline Hikkomori: The incident a year ago that results in the birth of Black and Blue Socks in the first place. It’s amazing how a year of reflection and starting to study law causes you to realize something. Like that you were in the wrong. After all, what I did was breech of contract that you and other had agreed to, which was that she got to boss us around, and we listened. It was my mistake for agreeing to such an absurd contract in the first place, but I trusted her. You live and you learn and you get to live. Maybe she wasn’t treating me very well, but if I’d gone to court over it, I would have lost. Later, I did learn that she had a tendency to just use and discard her friends, and she’s no longer on the blog scene, so oh well. I would be lying to say it still doesn’t hurt, but it’s also in the past. On the plus side, Rauken and I were able to find a common ground.
My Troublesome Health: One thing that’s really made blogging hard is my health. Throughout half of 2009-2010 I’ve had what are now viewed as secondary issues that interfered with blogging. Over the summer, I had fatigue too bad to make watching anime even a possibility. Finally, it seems that there’s a really problematic imbalance in my brain as well as a still undetermined autoimmune disorder where I’m constantly fighting infections–right now the tests are in the work to see if it’s lupus or not. I definitely have quite a case of fibromyalgia caused by said chemical imbalance. I’m doing what I need to for a better future, but right now, I have a flare, I’m fighting with constant pain and severe fatigue. The great irony is I didn’t think fibro was a real condition. In the next week or the week after, I’m going to switch medications to try to treat it and get some relief.
Moonlighting at Rabbitpoets: Has been an absolute blast! I’ve loved it! And I will always love RP. I haven’t done as well a job as I wanted to (see above), and I’m very thankful he’s been tolerant as he’s been. It’s still been great fun, and I hope that if my health improves, I can go back to moonlighting. I’m going to take a break in the winter, but I’m looking forward to the Spring.
Also, if you haven’t checked out Rabbitpoets yet, you should. wwww.rabbitpoets.com Remember the name.
My Identity Crisis: I change my icon all the time. I can never seem to find an icon that fits me, and says what Black and Blue Socks is about. On top of that, my OCD extents to icons, and I have all these rules about icons. I’ve just been changing from one to another until I found the right way to portray Black and Blue Socks. So I’ve been waiting for a pair of Black and Blue Socks to appear in anime, for, well, a year now. I guess I can stop waiting. Thanks Stocking. At least until I get OCD again…
The Aniblog Tourny: I was very surprised to find out that I was even in this. Please understand, Black and Blue Socks was only three or four months old. I was very flattered! Annnnd I got knocked out in the first round. I didn’t take it that hard though, if anything, the anxiety of being in a competition was terrible, and it was a relief to be out of it. Instead, I kicked back and did meta commentary and helped out with things–until it all blew up in my face.
I know there’s plans to run this in the future. Currently, I’d rather not compete again, but when the tournament rolls around, if I’m eligible, maybe I’ll think differently. I’m starting to realize I can’t predict my older self.
No, not really. And while the nice thing would be to be humble and say I do it for myself, I don’t. I love all my readers, and it means the world to me that you take the time out of your day to read this blog. After getting crushed by finals and having limited computer time, I am unable to read the blogs that I dearly want to read. I know I haven’t been commenting lately, and I am sorry. I want to. I barely have time to update my own blog. The only exception to this is when my father is home.
But there are two people that I truly blog for, and aim to entertain with my posts. Such as BT was to Ryushki07. They are my muses and inspirations. They offer direct feedback, and let me know what works and what doesn’t. Best of all, nothing makes me day quite like hearing them laugh over what I wrote. One of them is my twin sister. The other is Motichu, my boyfriend.
Yes, Black and Blue Socks is a product of my effort and labor. But without them, I wouldn’t have the same motivation.
So if you really enjoy Black and Blue Socks, and want to thank someone for the great year.
Between this, and 12 Years of Anime, I think we’ve covered 2010 guys.