So I’ve finally returned to Black and Blue Socks after temporarily not being allowed on the internet after I had a mental breakdown. A breakdown everyone could see coming I suppose, although there wasn’t much anyone could do. A lot of crap happened at once. The internet drama didn’t help. Gah. I’m still getting nasty comments that I’m no longer approving. I kinda dislike the internet now. The internet is one place you can’t be yourself is you have a disorder. The internet really is a place where people relish there’s no consequences for their actions, especially when they can hide behind the mask of anonymity. People will get their kicks by tearing you apart and breaking you. Some people just decide you have an evil ulterior motive of wanting attention or trying to emotionally blackmail people. Although there are still a lot of people who accept you the way you are and nice people. Impz commentary on the issue surprised and touched me, just because at this point, I’d accepted that most people don’t really care.
Except it kinda goes without saying that not everything is going to be like it was before.
At least until I go to college, my parents want and are going to push for me to cut down of my internet. After having gone over a week without internet, it’s pretty easy to adjust to not having it, actually. Still, that means I won’t be posting as much. On top of that, my mom had a conversation with me today on how once I graduate, “You’re going to be an adult, you can’t act the way you act on your blog anymore.’ Basically, a talk on how she wants me to be squeaky clean and have nothing offensive on my blog in case any future employers see my blog and are turned off. Of course, we avoided the topic of how no employer would probably want to hire me after seeing that I was a hardcore anime fan to the point I wrote a BLOG about it. I don’t see myself changing my blog that way at this point, but parental pressure can change things.
So what now? Well, come this month, I have been blogging for two years, so technically it’s time for my ‘death’. Although rather then die, I’m just going to ease up on the blogging and while I’ll still update, not at the same volume, and to allow some other newer blogs to take the spotlight. I had my fun in the sun, and after recent events, I want to be a low-profile blogger.
Also, there will probably be more book and movie reviews and this my shift to be a more ‘general’ blog with less anime in my life. Ho hum. We’ll see.